Remember when i was young, adults used to question me - "what are your dreams when you grow up?"
most of the time, i will have an answer to it almost immediately.
teacher, doctor, lawyer, police woman, tai tai, business woman.. you name it, i got it.
But now, as i reach the phase of my life where i got to really choose my career path, my future.. i seem to have lost my direction.
People always say, "life is when you pursue your dreams." But in reality, how many of such dreams can really be pursued? In the world now, everything is about being practical, keeping within the safezone and bringing home the bread.
This was exactly my thought when i first decided to major econs. Not because i love it. But because i need it. Because it opens the door to a better future. Sadly, it is not my dream.
I know banking and finance is what i ought to do and what i should do, and i dont really detest it. But the inner me will always seem to question myself... "is this what you really want?"
But i also know, what i wanna be, what i wanna do, is totally a far-fetched dream. Something that i can only continue dreaming of. I dunno if time and again, chances were given to me to realise this dream, to be a step closer to my desire, but because i lack the the bravery, i lack the confidence, i rejected them.
Now all i hope is that my passion for graphs, charts, numerical figures, calculus, etc will grow with time. and grow long enough to last me this lifetime.
For the bread. For the assurance. For my parents.
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