Sometimes we fail when we try
too hard.

it really surprises me how silly a person i've become.

since when have i became such a nuisance and irritant.

i hate myself getting so work up over little small things.

i hate myself for being so over-protective over others.

i hate myself worrying over nothing.

i hate myself being this way.

i hate it.

this is so not me.

i'm never so negative. yet i find it so hard to be my carefree self again.

i feel so weak. too weak for my own good.

i better pick up the pieces of
myself and piece it up before i crumble further.

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i wanna go Japan!!! i wanna travel with andy and his family at the end of the year.

trust mum to reject my request. I've been hell of a good daughter. No sleepovers. Coming home before 12 ( try my best). This been going on for months alr. been obliging to all her stupid rules and now i cant even go hols. i'm going crazy being a good girl. All i have been trying to do was be a good girl and all i get is this. what the hell is this world coming to?

i really want to be drunk just for a night.
hardly even had the chance to drink alr.

maybe just sip a few mouths?
i just wanna let my brain take a break. ( thou sadly my body will suffer from the toxics)
its been working too hard for its own good.